I don't know what to do today.
I don't know what I need to say.
I'm just not sure what to do anymore ya know. Like I honestly have never been so lost in my entire life like I've never had the feeling of I don't know what to say next. I've always been the guy who knew exactly what to say all the timebut now I'm just not sure anymoreI doubt myself regularly now. The doubt slowly fills my mind and it slowly takes over and I just blank things out cause i don't know if I'm right or if I'm wrong. Does anyone else have and or get this feeling???? Cause personally it really really sucks ass and I just can't stand it so I'm done doubting myself I'm just never gonna second guess anything anymore.

So....

I'm fairly new to the whole telling what I feel via internet. Its kinda weird but at the same time really relieved to get it all out. I just really don't know cause I really really just wish I knew what to write about and what to say but I really just need to figure out something but I can't figure it out. So in a couple days I will get to spend three straight days with her and go to warped tour it is really really exciting like no joke and I really just am excited and its quite fantastic.

So I really don't know as of late like seriously.... I just am having this constant thought process that keeps bringing me back to her, I try to think of other things but it doesn't work it comes back to her and what I'm going to do when I leave. I sure as heck don't want to hurt her but I sure as hell don't want to leave her for some odd reason I have this urge to make sure she is mine and just mine no one else's. I know its only been three weeks or more but seriously I can't help it I just want her to be mine. There is actually a song lyric of my own that fits this "He woke up this morning with one dream in his mind how do I make it where she is just mine." and I never thought that, that one lyric could ever sum me up and now I know that it finally really has its purpose. I've realized that, that lyric finally has a meaning to me and I'm not sure what to do and I know no one will read this unless I broadcast it or add people or something but it feels good just to let all of this out I mean honestly someone will read this and have no clue who I am and hopefully if someone does read this they will start thinking about the whole process of just wanting someone purely on the fact that this someone completely intrances you with their whole being and I just don't know what else to say so....

Signed,
Ninja[IN]Time